Monday, November 24, 2008

A Silver Lining to Every Cloud?

As you may have noticed from the recurring tone of my posts, I can easily allow negative situations to overwhelm and intimidate me, though I do believe that there is a lesson to be learned and essentially a positive outlook to be seen on everything that happens to us, it's just that sometimes it can be hard to see it. With my recent back injury/weight gain and the fears and insecurities accompanying it, I felt far from prepared to train fully in TKD let alone compete in a national competition, but somehow, yesterday, I did.

I'm not proud of my clumsy demonstration of Taekwon-Do, particularly in front of my own students. Having not prepared properly, either mentally or physically, I did not perform to my highest standard. Though I'm kicking myself for not doing things slightly differently in my bouts, I'm far more regretful of not showing my little protégés their instructor's full potential. I forgot things that I've known for years, and made a couple of rookie mistakes, but at the end of the day, I had won 2 Silver Medals for my efforts.

The awards themselves mean nothing to me, in fact I think I may have even left one behind at the competition in our haste to depart! The real "silver lining" for me was the look of awe and respect reflected in my young student's faces. It's easy to forget how much of an effect we have on other people's lives, even those who we do not interact with directly. In fact, one little girl, who I had never met before, came up to me and said: "Miss, you're my favourite black belt!" I nearly cried... :o)

5 comments:

Charlotte said...

Way to go,girl!! Even on your bad days you win silver medals! That's amazing. And what the little girl said is truly the icing on the cake. Keep up the great work!

Shivers said...

Thanks Charlotte! :o) I guess all those years of dedication to the sport actually paid off, but I also think that I had a bit of luck on my side! :o) I'm still replaying the finals over and over in my head, typical perfectionist attitude, but every now and then I get a flash of pride that even completely unprepared I managed to do so well...

MizFit said...

wowwaytogo!

and what the girl said? entirely brought to mind the quote of TO THE WORLD YOU ARE ONE PERSON BUT TO ONE PERSON YOU ARE THE WORLD.

Shivers said...

Miz - I think I need to get that on a T-shirt!! :o)

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