Monday, September 29, 2008

Oops...

Ok, somehow my Intuitive Eating plan became the Eat what I Want To plan.... And now I'm up a couple of lbs... D'oh... It's been a depressing few days since I hurt my back again. I felt like I was falling back into a familiar role of the injured victim, and comfort eating really didn't help.
I went for a short run this morning, just 2.5 miles, and it felt tough. I know that this is more mental than physical though, so I'm going to go again tomorrow morning and push for the 3 miles this time. I just want my old exercise routine back... :o(
I have this image in my head of who I want to be, and reality is just not matching up at the moment. Injuries don't help because they just create more questions.
Sorry, I know this post is a bit all over the place, but that's kind of reflective of my mindset... Things are a bit foggy at the moment... I feel a bit lost...

4 comments:

M said...

2.5 is good...no worries we all have our slides. Just keep moving! A positive attitude is contagious!

Shivers said...

You just made me smile with that comment.. Thanks! :o) I need an injection of positivity at the moment!

asithi @ Small Steps to Health said...

I know what you mean about the image we have in inside our heads and who we actually are. I got hurt my back a few years ago too. Things have never been the same since. And I also emotionally ate and gained 10 pounds during the recovery period.

Even now, I am so careful about re-injuring myself again. There are a few exercises that I know I need to modify or even skip because my body will pay for it the rest of the week. Once I was able to understand that and move on instead of thinking about what I used to be able to do, I felt less angry with the person who caused the car accident and less self pity. And that really helps with controlling my emotional eating.

I really hope you feel better soon.

Shivers said...

Asithi - well done for finding a way to get past all that negativity, I know it's so easy to get caught up in blame and anger, and of course self-pity too. I think we all under-estimate the devastating effect of an injury, particularly on us fit and active people. I'm very good at being restricted, and I'm definitely not good at being patient.

My back feels a lot better today, but I think that like my weight, it's something I will always have to be mindful of, and I need to find a way to accept that.